Moments of magic looping together. Closeness. Care. Skin touching skin. Moving hands and bodies intertwining. Being inside an erotic connection with someone who cares about and is invested in my pleasure and my wellbeing.

These are some elements of the medicine of erotic connection. Holding erotic space well must take deep mastery of the self. Allowing myself to be held, to move, and to explore in this erotic space is healing medicine. How it works is mysterious. Somehow as I come into the space, even beforehand as I prepare, I feel the erotic pulse inside me. Pulsing in anticipation. I don’t take it for granted or expect it, but I trust it to arise when the time is right for both of us.

It’s desire, longing, an energy that draws two bodies together to move each other and make music together. Within the container of the space, of the agreement, of the respect and care, I feel safe to move my body into and out of my most erotic motions and desires. Today I spoke some of my longings and gave voice to the yearnings of my body. You received my words with your kind, sexy eyes and warm, strong body. I came close to the edge of orgasm, approached the peak of pleasure and then slowed it back down while staying connected, still touching and melting, still feeling both myself and you with curiosity, desire, and wonder.

Touching your body today made me really happy. The smoothness and warmth of your skin calmed my nervous system and kept me in the moment. I felt my touch sync in with your touch. I allowed myself to feel your skin and enjoy your strength and sink into the experience more deeply than ever before. I lifted my hips into your hands. I moved my pussy up and down on your fingers. I opened my legs and hips wide letting your masculine energy enter me (energetically) and told you of my desire to feel you inside me. I felt the longing to be as close and connected to you as possible in that moment.

I felt the intensity of your desire and turn on dancing with my desire and turn on, and existing inside of our agreement even though we both felt the pull to go beyond. This experience helps me trust myself and you. It helps to trust my body and my turn on and my knowing of how to stay present and safe for myself and others.

I felt the deepest intimacy grow in the still moments. Feeling your body on top of mine and tuning into my breath, your heart beat, the heat from our skin and the pulse of my pussy. It almost overwhelmed me, which is why I know to trust my instincts to move more slowly even in the moments when I want to speed up and push into more pleasure.

I felt so much relief to be held so well, so strongly, and for such a long time. I spend so much time longing for this kind of feeling, desiring to relax into another body, but not just any body, this felt so divine. This bliss came so quickly, so easily today, and also has been years in the cultivation. Layers have slowly, organically and sensually been removed one at a time.

When I walked in you opened your arms and held me close for a few minutes, all my anxiety and fear melted into that hug and the 2 months since our last session disappeared into the present moment of the erotic pulse that keeps calling me back to find the fullest expression of my sexuality. I want you to see all of me and feel all of me. I want you to witness me as I discover how to find more freedom and embrace more of my wildness. I want to know what happens in the moments I allow my pleasure seeking body to take the lead. I dance between my erotic power and my shyness, my desire and my insecurity, my turn on and my tantric soul.

I’m grateful for this gift of shared experience and erotic exploration, for the play of turning the dial up and down, for riding the edge of my boundary and then resting in the space the bliss created. I give myself this gift of time with you. I’m so grateful for your energy, your medicine and the space you created for me. Thank you.

I’m exploring how to hold it close to my heart and also let it dance in the wind and fly free. It’s an energy I trust, an experience I value and crave, and something to look forward to every once in a while. It’s a ceremony, taking time to call in and honor what’s possible to discover and create inside of conscious erotic connection. I’m going to keep allowing it to be a mystery as I integrate the saturated pleasure moments and erotic movements into my core and allow my cells to be reinformed about who I am and what I am capable of desiring and receiving. The wet, open channels of turn on and pleasure inform my current and future self to move towards what feels good, imagine and ask for what brings me pleasure, and discover and observe the ways I love to give and receive pleasure.

I desire to orient my life around this alive, turned on energy. I find my smile, my laughter, my joy and my ecstasy as my nervous system melts, relaxes and purrs for more. More touch, more touching, more being held, more waves of pleasure, more whispers in my ear, more lips brushing against my breasts with desire, more dripping with desire to be filled up and overflow.