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Coming Home to My Body
It’s 10:10 on a Thursday morning, and I’m still in bed. I slept until about eight, made my coffee with orange blossom honey and half-and-half, did the New York Times games, and then, instead of starting work, I climbed back under the covers. I reached for my crystal egg, put a little aloe lubricant on…
Read Moreuntangling desire & trust
I had gone into today’s session with an idea—maybe I would let M. witness me pleasuring myself. He had suggested it last time, and the thought stayed with me. For weeks I imagined myself opening in that way: vibrator in hand, egg inside, body exposed in orgasm before his eyes. But as the day grew…
Read Morefull moon feeling
Friday night full moons can feel a certain way. With this one I felt an expectation of myself to be wild, maybe I’d even embody my sexy goddess self fully. Sometimes life doesn’t go the way we plan. I found myself in tears and not feeling even remotely sexy as my evening sensual massage appointment…
Read Morepleasure practice
I had a pleasure practice long before I knew that it was called a Pleasure Practice. I learned how to give myself orgasms before I even knew what the word masturbate meant. I intuitively understood to keep this thing that I really, really enjoyed to myself and only do it in private. In the forty-something…
Read Moreheld
I’m often overwhelmed by the desire to be held. I crave the feeling of being able to relax into an embrace and breathe into the support of another person’s warm, strong body. It has to be the right person. It must be someone who I want to be held close by. Someone who smells like…
Read Moreerotic connection
Moments of magic looping together. Closeness. Care. Skin touching skin. Moving hands and bodies intertwining. Being inside an erotic connection with someone who cares about and is invested in my pleasure and my wellbeing. These are some elements of the medicine of erotic connection. Holding erotic space well must take deep mastery of the self.…
Read Morenaked
Undressing. Getting naked. Becoming naked. Being naked. My nakedness can be vulnerable, emotional, and also exhilarating. Especially when I’ve invited your gaze and asked you to witness me. I discovered a deep longing for that feeling of peeling away the layers of my clothes, removing everything that hides the intimate details of my body, and…
Read Moremy desires
He asked me to think deeply about my desires and my intention for working with him. The focus of our work is in service of me and my healing. Having the space to feel into what I desire and speak it has proven to be very powerful for me. In the past, and even now,…
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