relationships
When Longing Feels Like Love
Why emotional intensity, sensual connection, and longing can feel like love I’ve spent years trying to understand why certain connections affected me so deeply. But what feels more true now is this: Something was happening inside me that I didn’t understand. There were moments that felt undeniable. Touch. Presence. Being close to someone in a…
Read MoreThe Places I Stayed Too Long
There’s a kind of connection that feels real in the body before it ever becomes real in a life. That’s where I have lived. Not in relationships that were clearly chosen and built over time, but in moments—touch, eye contact, laughter, shared space, the feeling of being wanted for a second, an hour, a night.…
Read MoreLearning to Leave What I Love
There is a kind of intimacy that doesn’t just touch your body—it reorganizes it. It opens pathways you didn’t know were there. It teaches you how to feel, how to soften, how to let yourself be met. And then, sometimes, it leaves you with that opening… without the person who helped you find it. That’s…
Read Morescrewed
A former lover once asked me if I’m monogamous. I said I didn’t know. I’ve never been in a long relationship, so how could I know how I’d feel if I got there? But the real answer is more layered. I’ve been wondering about open relationships since my twenties, when a boyfriend said he’d marry…
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