The truth is I have had most of my best orgasms by myself. My practice of self-pleasure has developed into one of the most meaningful and pleasurable ways I spend my time. I feel so alive, so cared for, cherished, and held…by myself! It is a beautiful thing, to love myself and embrace my sensuality in this beauty way.

Sometimes I fantasize about spreading my legs so wide open for your big hard cock to enter me that my hips ache with pleasure. I can cum harder and longer from the memory and imagination of your cock than I did when it was inside of me. 

Being with you is its own kind of pleasure and ecstasy. There is nothing like the touch, kiss, desire, and attention of a dedicated lover who knows my curves so well and how to make me moan. I admit that I haven’t ever found a lover who can truly center my pleasure the way I do or who desires to know my body in the way she’s meant to be known, touched, and loved. 

I have a practice of touching myself sensually every day. In the shower, I use my hands to slowly massage delicious-smelling soap all over my body taking extra care to massage into my armpits, around my breasts and my belly, my booty, and my vulva. 

I enjoy the feeling of the cool water rinsing the suds off my skin. Sometimes I shave, sensually gliding a clean, sharp razor up the length of my muscular legs, up the insides of my luscious thighs, along the insides of my labia, and in between my ass checks. I lovingly stroke the razor along the insides of my armpits, and also along my lower arms. I love to feel the smooth, softness of my skin right after I’ve shaved. It’s my own strange foreplay in anticipation of giving myself all the pleasure I desire and deserve. 

I end my showers with cold water that helps to close my pores opened by the hot, steamy water and gives my long hair some extra shine and sleekness.

 I lift my arms above my head and allow the cold water to flow over and under my full breasts, down my back, and over my curvaceous ass. I take the shower head off and move it down between my legs. I feel the rush of coolness. The pressure of the water sends shivers of pleasure through my inner thighs and pussy. I think about the times I have massaged my pussy with the hard-flowing water from this shower head. Orgasming while standing up feels so divine. Today I am leaning into a long, slow pathway of fully embracing all the pleasure erupting and moving within my body in undulating waves. I’m saving my orgasm for when it arises inside me spontaneously, for when I overflow with pleasure and sensation and my whole body participates in the delicious energetic redistribution of sacred, sensual energies. 

Once I turn off the water, I sometimes just stand naked in the shower feeling the drops of water slide down my body.

I wring the extra water from my hair and grab a soft towel hugging it to my face and chest. I enjoy slowly brushing the towel over my arms and legs while admiring my muscular strength and the power in my limbs. I wrap the towel around my head to help absorb all the moisture in my hair. Then I look at myself in the mirror and find all the beauty I can in my curvy, full, goddess-like figure. 

I spend time massaging jojoba oil into my skin starting with my face, neck, chest, arms… I spend extra time massaging oil into my nipples and breasts. I love massaging my breasts so much. It feels amazing and so healthy. Giving this beautiful, abundant part of my body dedicated love and attention lifts my spirit and energizes my heart and my whole body. There is nothing that makes me feel more connected to my femininity, my sensuality, or my divine sexual energy than massaging my breasts.

I send so much love through my hands as I massage my belly, enjoying its fullness and softness. I breathe deeply as I massage oil into my inner thighs and my vulva. I love nourishing my pussy, spreading hydrating oil into my pubic hair and labia. I especially love massaging my butt. I circle my hips undulating in the pleasurable motion of it. I even run my hand between my cheeks and make sure to spread oil on my butthole. I circle my finger around it, sometimes pushing it in a little way. Massaging the inside of it, relaxing the tightness a bit, feels so good. I’ve heard this is good for anal health. 

I love how I feel when I’m clean, hydrated, smooth, and fully turned on. I love offering myself this time and practice of self-pleasure. It’s a gift of love I give myself. This is a big part of my ongoing apology in action for all the times I didn’t take the time to love and appreciate my body, listen to her, or allow her to be fully alive and full of pleasure. 

I spend a lot of time naked. I live alone and revel in the feeling of freedom and vulnerability my nakedness offers. I often spend time in my garden naked. I pee directly on my lawn and offer my menstrual blood to my plants. I feel so connected to and infused by the natural world. My body has as much to offer the earth as she does to me. I love to lie in the sun and allow her warm rays to caress my naked body. I open my legs and offer my pussy healing rays of sunshine that infuse her with solar energy. I want the sun to touch me everywhere, her warmth mixing with my own, the feeling of turn-on rising up from inside of me.

I love feeling sunshine on my breasts and nipples. I love the way my nipples harden and soften in the sunlight. My breasts ache for all the love and warmth they desire. I often hold them cupped in both my hands, radiating love. I squeeze my breasts with my hands cupped over my nipples and feel the pleasure rush down my body. My nipples and pussy have a symbiotic pleasure connection. 

I’ve been doing a daily yoga program called Hips Like Honey. Mmmmmm, right? My hips are definitely full of delicious honey. The exercises are challenging but stimulating to my pelvic floor, my groin, and my hips, they bring increased energy and blood flow to my whole pelvic area. I like to do these exercises naked in the garden. I then lie back over my yoga bolsters and pleasure myself. 

Recently I’ve been inserting my jade egg into my pussy beforehand. My orgasms are so enhanced by this small hard egg shape made of jade inside my vagina. Having something so hard for my pussy to contract around feels incredibly divine. 

I lie back on my favorite teal green bolster and open my chest as my shoulders drop down on either side. My breasts fall to the sides rising and falling with my long, deep breaths. My hips are elevated on a second bolster and my legs open to the sides in a reclined butterfly pose. I start to feel my body running my hands over my breasts and my belly. I feel my inner thighs and the tender crease where my legs meet my sacred triangle and pleasure center. 

I feel my pussy, enjoying my own wetness and the folds and creases of my beautiful yoni. Sometimes I use a vibrator and sometimes my fingertips. I explore circles and strokes of different pressure and speed. I start slowly and sensually, moving in close to the deepest pleasure points and then backing off. I breathe deeply, I undulate my hips. My back arches and my breastbone arcs up to the sky. I sometimes squeeze my butt, lifting up and opening my hips wider. Sometimes I lift my legs in the air and open them into the splits. As I move I see what feels most incredible in my dance with the undulating pleasure that radiates through my whole body. I move as if I was made for the universe to witness me reveling in her divine life-force energy.

This is the gift I give myself for being alive and being a force of love and healing. My waves of orgasm build and recede over and over. Somedays I give in to them more quickly and some days I draw it out as long as I desire. My body is a magical wonderland. I am so grateful to be able to feel so much pleasure, delight, ecstasy and joy rise up from within. 

Outside, in the elements, with the sunshine, the breeze, the birds soaring overhead, the trees swaying and witnessing me, my orgasm is the most natural thing in the world and fuels my harmony with myself and the natural world. 

Sometimes at the peak of my orgasm, my nostrils open wide, I draw in the deepest breaths of my day, my breastbone and back crack slightly, my toes point and flex, and my pelvis opens wider, everything is vivid and surreal as I am bathed in release, flooded with warmth and pleasure, activated throughout every cell and fully alive. 

As my breath and heartbeats slowly return to their steady rhythms, I sink into a relaxed state of bliss that is more subdued and steady. I am grateful for this time, this body, my awareness, and my ability to practice loving myself and providing for myself in this way. 

When I smile throughout the day, I remember these moments and my own private practice of pleasure that is always available to me.