Posts Tagged ‘conscious intimacy’
If We Met Again
It begins as if I am dreaming. The air between us is charged, the way it used to hum before a storm. I don’t know if it’s memory or premonition, only that my body recognizes him before my mind does. The space is the same, but something has changed. There is no tension of expectation,…
Read MoreTaking Courage to Slow Down
For years, I experienced sex in a way that felt like I had no real agency over the pace or sequence of events, over how my body was touched and enjoyed, and around my feelings of pleasure, overwhelm, discomfort or whatever felt like too much, not enough, or more of what was just right. The…
Read Morespace between
I keep circling the same question: does S feel something for me beyond our sessions? For more than three years, S has touched me, held me, witnessed me. We’ve moved between massage and conscious intimacy, weaving back and forth across boundaries that feel both clear and porous. The exploration of our naked bodies never feels…
Read Moreuntangling desire & trust
I had gone into today’s session with an idea—maybe I would let M. witness me pleasuring myself. He had suggested it last time, and the thought stayed with me. For weeks I imagined myself opening in that way: vibrator in hand, egg inside, body exposed in orgasm before his eyes. But as the day grew…
Read Moresacred tension
My appointment was for Sunday at 1:45 PM—a two-hour massage that became so much more. Before I left the house, I was already inside of the ritual. Showered. Shaved smooth. Oil rubbed sensually all over my body. I rolled fragrance oil down my arms and neck, behind my ears, across my lower back. Sandalwood in…
Read Morethe verge
I’ve gone to the edge of my comfort zone with him, again and again. He invited me there—and I said yes. I invited him there. I invited myself. Willingly. Softly. Sensually. Each time I opened a little more. Embraced more. Received more. Touched more. Trusted more. And in all of it, he was there. Tracking…
Read Moresteering my own vessel
Dear Love, What would you have me know today? I am proud of you for finding the center of your own life and steering your ship in the direction of your own North Star. This lifetime is ultimately for you—to walk your path, bound only by the soul-deep agreements you’ve made with yourself. Abundant guidance…
Read Moreconscious intimacy
What is conscious intimacy? What does it mean to me? What does it feel like? I want to explore deeply so I can create more of it in my life. When I think of intimacy, I long to feel comfort and at ease in my body, mind and spirit in the presence of my lover.…
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