Posts Tagged ‘self-trust’
Learning to Leave What I Love
There is a kind of intimacy that doesn’t just touch your body—it reorganizes it. It opens pathways you didn’t know were there. It teaches you how to feel, how to soften, how to let yourself be met. And then, sometimes, it leaves you with that opening… without the person who helped you find it. That’s…
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I’m noticing a connection. On Saturday when I saw M., we tried sitting down to talk. Almost immediately, I felt uncomfortable. There really isn’t a comfortable way to sit in that room. He even admitted that. Usually he takes the chair and I sit on the weird folded futon. It’s not comfortable. And there have…
Read Morespace between
I keep circling the same question: does S feel something for me beyond our sessions? For more than three years, S has touched me, held me, witnessed me. We’ve moved between massage and conscious intimacy, weaving back and forth across boundaries that feel both clear and porous. The exploration of our naked bodies never feels…
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There is a kind of intimacy that isn’t about another person. It isn’t about being touched, chosen, or understood. It’s about returning home to yourself. For so long, I thought intimacy meant letting someone in. Letting them touch me, hear me, see me. Letting them love me. And maybe it still does. But lately, I’m…
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